Feel really stupid for using meth yesterday. And it always starts with drinking first. I just got a new job a couple weeks ago that's actually a pretty good one and I can't help but jeopardize everything good that comes my way. Now I made up some lame excuse why I won't be in at work tomorrow, saying I got a family legal matter in court which isn't far from the truth, but that already happened last week. But in reality I just want to level out for a day and get my mental health back to where it should be to take action or commit to going the right way . My meth using always starts with drinking, I got to stop giving myself permission to get beer when I get off work, but I'm new to the state I live in, don't really know too many people, and the beer comforts me. I also need to cut off the one person that's the one I use with, whom always calls after I've started drinking, so it doesn't sound like a bad idea at the time. I need people who are sober around me to remind me of where these permissions will lead back to. I hope I have my job after tomorrow.
Hey Richard, this story sounds all to familiar!! I use to do the same exact thing. Your correct in stating that you need to cut ties with that one friend. It gets very lonely when you change your lifestyle but you will start attracting the right just by staying sober doing sober activities.. it takes time. In the meantime try to not drink and pray to God for strength and removing the temptation, thoughts, etc. I will be praying for you. Get your head back in the game. You are worthy of healthy lifestyle!
I agree with everything thing Wendy has said, but would like to add that you should go to a meeting before the drinking starts. The meeting in my town is very welcoming and I have formed friendships with people who are also in recovery and struggle with a lot of the same things I do. My home group has like 45 people that's a lot of people who care and are their to help the next one out of the pit.
Thanks I appreciate that 
. This is Day 1 for me, I took the day off work and my boss texted me early this morning basically that he understand s, so that was God! I think I dodged a bullet there. The disappoinment in myself after using, definitely need to pull myself out that darkness quick! I'm going to start back doing healthy things I like, and find a meeting closeby
Thanks and I agree, this time around I'm going to a meeting. I had 18 months last October and got them by making it to meetings every week. Since I relocated and made not smart acquaintances I lost my time. Meetings is definitely what's missing, I can't do it by myself