Feel so ashamed and depressed today! I should be at the highest I can be and my achievements I have made being clean a sober as of date! But it is so hard with all the negativity the last few days and being consumed by it! Sometimes a meeting helps but sometimes a meeting can also demoralize the things one accomplished and digs a person further! Talking to a sponsor helps but at the end of the day it’s up to the individual to get over the issues at hand! Just sometimes things aren’t as easy at it seems! Sometimes when u talk to others for advice the reaction is the same! The here we go again speech! The reaching out for help and the same reaction from ur peers over and over again! The thoughts of not being accepted in a community of people that need help like myself! Keeps a person spinning and trust is lost! For me I suffered a few major blows mentally and still get the same reactions from all! I expect nothing from anyone just much needed help! I am trying my best but feel helpless! No this is not insanity it a fact of life! By no means am I perfect! I try to be humble and hide a lot inside! I realize this not healthy but in a world of here we go again it’s best to keep to myself!
Hey! I hear you. You, in fact, are not alone. Just posting and getting the thoughts and feelings out is often beneficial. You are stronger than you think and heard more than know. Maybe a therapist? I am sorry you are feeling the spiral of depression. I hope you can ground yourself and spin upwards into gratitude and more positive times and people.
Hey brother! Sorry you’re struggling gong at the moment. The advice I got from my sponsor and others in the program usually involved a statement about prayer, meditation, acceptance, turning it over, trust, and keep coming back. While that advice was spot on, I couldn’t see it helping me at the time. I was struggling with my connection to a higher power, and it just made it frustrating. That being said, I did keep coming back and working the program to the best of my ability at that time. The only reason I stayed was because I couldn’t go back on doing my it all on my own. I don’t know how or why, but things did get better, and I did stay sober.
I’m curious if you’re getting some poor feedback or if you’re getting some of the same responses I received. If the later, just try and follow the best you can. You may not understand the how’s and why’s, but maybe we’re not supposed to. Hope you feel better brother