Feel so ashamed. For the longest time I didn't think I had a problem. Alcohol was just what everyone did. But it ruined a lot of great times with my partner and he has questioned why he is with me. Went sober last year and started drinking at holidays thought I could control it. Slowly been drinking more and more and last week went on a total bender where he caught me sneaking booze. I feel so guilty and alone. But we had a conversation where for the first time told him and myself I have a problem. He is trying to support me as best he can and here I'm on day 3 trying to do my best and go to a meeting, order a sober book, listen to a sober podcast and get my hobbies ready. But I feel like I'm stuck in the shame guilt and embarrassment. I want to move forward and feel good about sobriety but this terrible shame is keeping me from it. What do I do?
Ask yourself "is alcohol or my partner more important?" That should help clear things up and help you realize the direction you need to go.
My partner that is why I'm day 5 and praying I can get over this Hump ND that I haven't done any physical damage.