Feeling content. When I don’t drink, first thing which I notice is that my night sleep improve a lot. I sleep like a baby, no more sleepless nights, feelings of remorse, resentment, guilty and shame.
I just need to keep going. No matter what.
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Keep at it! - I can't help but notice all those books! 
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Keep up the Great work !!!!
My only complaint is that I can’t sleep!! Suggestions would be great. I can’t turn my mind off at night.
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Self-care in the house...
Amen:heart:
If you are working a 12 step program, you can look forward to your brain quieting down after steps 4&5. Once you get all your secrets out into the world, and outta your head) you will find a new freedom. Or, I should say, that’s how it worked for me and many ppl I know.
Thanks a lot!! I’m not working the steps though. I’ll figure something out…. Just not drinking myself to sleep. Haha
“Drinking isn’t an option anymore.”
That’s what I tell myself throughout the day! 
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Content is probably on my top 5 words in no particular order...
Content
Balance or balanced
We
loving......"whatever"
specifically
All are positive words with a little extra uumphh!
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Agree!
Melatonin! Try, it’s safe and helps to sleep better
Ya same for me. Contentment is essential for recovery
That’s wise. Thanks
I worked with my previous sponsor and we finished step 5 with her and then I relapsed. Still don’t understand why it happened. Now I am starting again with a new sponsor.
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You and I know that this thing we have is a sneaky little MF.
Just relax. There is no
limit to fo through things. My favorite sponsor Jimmy N wouldn't let me start Step Excercises until the New Years Day in my 2nd year. I had no profound thing to say at meetings.
My friends would say how dangerous it was to not be working on the steps right away.
Turns out he was right. In the first year + I was just getting used to doing day to day.
I concentrated on one step per month.
Morning,
noon, and night. Re read the step every evening. Put down om paper what it all meant to me. By New Years Day the next year I had been theough all 12. I was so proud of myself. That night he asked me about my day on Sep 1. I was confused. I told him we just finished the Steps yesterday. He laughed and said we just spent one year talking, reading, and exercising the Steps in order. Now I was year "older" and it was time to re start the focus. He said one step per month so the 12 Steps in 1 year to be repeated for 12 years. He told me he'd probably be dead before or not long after and will be 12 years sober. By then I wouldn't even recognize myself or my hopes, my dreams, my accomplishments.
Sorry for the long winded memory.
I have missed him dearly for a long tome now. My brother is sober and my dad as well. Dad doesn't do mtgs anymore. He was just never comfortable. Between the three of us 114 years combined. I was the only one to relapse ever.
Relapse doesn't take
away your time.
It means you start the clock over for cakes and medallions. You still know what you learned. You lau not know why you went out there but I bet you know not everything was being done.
So it takes what it takes and humility is a huge part. Walking back in, and being honest is brutal. That said its also a quality to be very proud of.
Warriors are humble, honest, and brutally courageous!
So Even though we don't know each other I'm proud to be around and stand along side another warrior...virtually!
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Brent, thanks a lot for such a deep and meaningful message. It means a lot to me. 12 steps for a year… a step a month. I love that. I really need to work on that
You know...Some of us are better at some things and some others. I was always great at reading people. Kept
me alive many times.
You have it. You are one of the special ones. AA survives not by what is said with the volume on 10 but rather those who just do. Volume level one.
AA was never
meant to be our loves. It was meant to allow us to live our lives.
AA has its flaws. Its just like us. Beautifully imperfect.
You just keep ok with its flaws with a smile. Like a child that
misuses a word trying to sound sophisticated.
So tell me...what do you do?
Kids?
Work or school?
Where would you like to be in 5 years?
Thats the reason to go to bed sober today and that'll be the reason you'll wake up and do
whatever tomorrow.
Just don't drink and do something mice
for someone expecting zero in return!
Sleep well.
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Appreciate your wisdom 