Yesterday’s over. One day at a time. The disease tries to tell us if we slipped yesterday it will govern what we do today and tell us might as well just keep slipping. Just today we have. Glad you’re back and reaching out.
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Those are the tricks that alcohol plays! There is no shame in starting over. You identified your triggers and there is a lesson out of it. Please forgive yourself, and don’t worry about your number, just turn it into fuel to get back on track! There is so much challenge in Day 1 but what is more beautiful?? It’s a part of the process 
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And also you are very pretty! Lol 
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I totally feel this! Killing time at the lounge and free drinks on flights, it’s so tempting. I’ve spent many Sundays flying home hungover and self medicating with hair of the dog. Hang in there! I’m right here with ya 
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Agreed!
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Alcohol promises so much and leaves us disappointed every time.
That's why I call it believing the big lie; that this time, everything will be ok.
But it never is, is it?
We have to learn to play the scene forward. What happens if you drink? You might feel some relief for a short period of time.
But when it's over with, you will be right back where you are right now, carrying around more guilt, realizing you accomplished absolutely nothing!
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Main thing is that you’re back on track. Next time you travel you’ll be better prepared.
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Next time you’re in an airport and have the urge try having one of the places ask over the intercom for friends of Bill W to report to where you’re at. Be surprised how many people show up. you’re not really ever alone. Saved me once. You got this and continue to fight the good fight. 
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That’s exactly why I personally need AA. And a sponsor. I know some of my triggers and I know sobriety on my terms has too many exceptions. Having said that it’s progress not perfection. Keep moving forward. Day one or Day one hundred, it doesn’t matter. Today is all that matters. Don’t take that first drink today. Yesterday is history. There’s no changing it. Give yourself a break for that and worry about today. Don’t mean to be preachy, I’m sorry if it comes across that way.
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Don’t waste brainpower hating it. Love that you’ll learn from it. 
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This was me a week ago, I travelled, drank, at it ended up being my rock bottom and wake up call. I’m still beating myself up, but practicing grace. Like those above, one day at a time. Forgive yourself and move forward (easier said…)
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It happens I use to b the king of relapse, but now I value my clean time over everything
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The next time you are in that same situation, pick up the phone and call someone in your support network. If you don't have one, then please make one. I don't suggest doing this alone. WE ALL started with ONE DAY.
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I have lost my sobriety due to this same reason twice you are not alone. Flights give me anxiety along with airports. I think that is why having a support network is so important and as mentioned don’t beat yourself up about it recognize it and own it like you have done and try to make a different choice next time. I have felt exactly what your experiencing and it’s difficult but it’s also a learning opportunity as to where we may be falling short. Hang in there
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I relapsed the number of times and four I got this thing the good point is you made it back so just get back to it and I don’t want to say this to scare you, but this is a very deadly disease two of my brothers I bury does a direct result of alcoholism to do yourself a favor and stay in recovery
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You ARE very pretty, probably moreso when you aren't beating yourself up for a mistake we have almost all made. Celebrate the fact that you are back on track, learn the lesson, and maybe strive to make it further in your sobriety count this go-round. You are back on track and I am adding that to my daily gratitude!
I do understand entirely how you feel however.
Jane,
Give yourself some grace, it does happen. The thing is you can learn from this, you don’t want to drink and you are working towards the you that you want to be. Think of it as not starting over (you’ve already made the decision to stop drinking awhile ago), it’s just a small bump in the road to your recovery!!!
I agree with you Joshua. Relapse is what alcoholics do. Guilt is a traitor emotion like saying if I didn’t do what I should have at least I’m noble enough to feel guilty about it. Maybe forgiveness will not only help but it may have a lasting impact on anyone who finds it hard for them to do and pay dividends in our trudging the road of a happier destiny.
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Sobriety is only one part of recovery. Sobriety can be easily challenged and broken without all the tools of recovery actively engaged daily. Your sobriety is a house. The house needs protective layers— shingles, waterproofing, paint, a good foundation, etc. triggers are earthquakes, rainstorms and hailstorms. If you do not keep replenishing the protective coatings (recovery activities), eventually the outside elements will penetrate the house. Build strong protections and you will win!! You can do this!
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