Feeling guilty. I tripped

43 days sober and I went to the Blues and Jazz fest in Gahana. I knew it would test me. Tough environment for recovery. I was good and was enjoying the evening. All the group was drinking, and a couple had edibles. I was in a good mood, lots of laughter. My group was great, quietly supportive by not talking about my conspicuous abstinence and not asking if I wanted a drink. I had let them know I was working on this a couple weeks ago.
I was feeling strong, strong enough to walk to the concession stand and get my wife a beverage.
Later while enjoying the music, a doobie (showing my age) came down the row. I tripped and smoked a couple of puffs. Weed has never been an issue or had any kind of hold on me. I generally just smoke it or leave it. This is my first real concerted effort at sobriety, and I reaching out for advice. Does anyone know if sobriety/abstinane can be achieved from alcohol, and still smoke weed once in a while? It kind of feels to me like I can, as I didn't want to drink any more than I usually do, but it seems risky.
Thoughts?

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Recovery is different for everyone. For me, I can’t do anything. It’s not worth it. Some take a different path. I’m glad you reached out, I’m sure you’ll get lots of perspectives. Also, congrats on 43 days!!!

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Thank you May. I am not sure for me. Marijuana is legal here, so if it's a problem for me, just like alcohol, I will have to avoid it arround every turn. It's a journey, I guess we all figure it out one way or another.

Like May said everyone is different for me I smoked ganja multiple time daily for about 30 years
My interest to smoke (or eat) naturally left me before I stopped drinking
For me alcohol is what "worked" to fill the void in my life (until it didn't)
I have tried just about every drug out there but none of them ever got their claws into me like alcohol

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I live in Columbus- let's get together sometime

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The only requirement is a desire to stop drinking :muscle:

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Thanks Nathan. Stayed clear of those claws, and hope to stay clear.

Thanks Rhino M for the support. I have desire and so far the ability.

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Fing A right you do. We must.

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Oooh that’s a thorny patch! For me weed maintenance didn’t work. Eventually I broke down an d drank again. I had to be completely clean! Weed made me complacent and quite stupid. My life quickly became mediocre and diminished.
Absolute sobriety is the best!!!:gift_heart:

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Congratulations, John

43 days sober. That is freaking awesome. Congratulations brother.