I feel like I am all alone fighting a battle with a room full of people yet no one understands what I am feeling or thinking. I seem to always be at fault for my emotions and I find myself often apologizing for expressing how I feel and then being made to feel like my thoughts are over dramatic..
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I know this feeling, people outside of recovery are always going to have trouble really understanding what it’s like. That’s why having a sober network is so helpful! Not sure how much time you have, but the further along I get I’m better able to identify the way certain people or interactions make me feel and I have better boundaries with who I choose to be around and how often, also the interactions that I have with them. Meetings always make me feel better when I feel that way. Good luck 
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What Charlotte said b get to meetings. Those rooms are full of people who know how you feel. You don't have to be lonely.
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You are loved you are enough
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Don’t despair Mary. There are millions of us out here who understand exactly how you feel and we’re here to support you and your journey. One step at a time.
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The people in there know what you are going through but they aren’t saying what we want to hear in the beginning. I thought never alone meant something else… something to do with HP
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Hi,
I got a message.
Gonna beat the dead horse bit maybe a different voice...
I think sometimes we forget, that although we deserve ton be proud of our going daily without a drink the real world owes us nothing. We burned a lot bridges. I don't know about you but I lied, cheated and stole all the time when I was using.
The easiest way out of lonely is to get around people that think the same and have the same "stuff". AA isn't a cult.
Not a religious organization. Just a bunch of folks that think the same. Try it. You might feel better quickly. Until then feel free to reach out. Happy to listen or share.
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It’s a process but he’ll if I know when the periods of loneliness go away. Reachout in meetings or on here . Plenty folks would love to chat.
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Hi-
Have you tried meditating? It’s a nice way to slow down and get to know yourself. The best person you’ll ever know 
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First off those are your feelings don’t let anyone tell you how you feel! Mary you have a chat room full of people who do understand what you’re going through, our lives mite be different and our stories are not the same but we are all fighting similar battles mentally, so reminder that you are in a safe space here and feel free to reach out.
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Mary
I found common ground with people at AA and Alanon. I am also currently listening to a woman called the crappy childhood fairy on YouTube. We aren't perfect just because we're not drinking. I know I have benefited from Counseling and Alanon. Sometimes our experience as children leave us damaged beyond the damage we caused and allowed during our using. You can find a balance and emotional recovery as long as you are sober.
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I know what it’s like to feel outnumbered and misunderstood, even unappreciated. Just remind yourself that it’s only temporary and you will always have the ability to find new people that are more like you, people that appreciate you and people that will build you up. When you’re stuck in the present and you’ve done all you can to manage your environment, just try to imagine and envision your life in the future, in a positive way. Make plans and set goals. Most importantly, communicate with your higher power. The book that I often turn to offers this, “Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be anxious, for I am your God. I will fortify you, yes, I will help you, I will really hold on to you with my right hand of righteousness.” I didn’t get it at first but he specified which hand because in order to hold you with his right hand, he has to be in front of you, facing you with his hand out. I hope it helps <3
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You are strong! You deserve to be happy. If the people around you are not helping you, change who the people around you are. People, places, things…
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No one cares- text me I might not have the answer but will listen
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I understand how you feel Mary. Healing and making a conscious choice to look at ourselves and dig deep can stir up a lot of inner turmoil and emotions. It’s difficult to sometimes know what the deeper issue is of being triggered and having emotional reactions. The cool thing about active recovery and the 12 steps is it really helps you identify what is going on emotionally. You are not alone. Believe me I understand how you feel. My brain can tell me the same thing (still) at times. Reaching out to others and even actively choosing to put this up here was a healthy choice you ultimately made for yourself and your recovery. So good on you for doing that, to heal from those feelings. We are all here for you.
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It sounds to me like you need to start getting to AA meetings. There's no shortage of people who understand what you're feeling.
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The only people who will ever understand you is another recovering alcoholic or addict. Spend as much time as possible in the rooms of AA preferably or at least surrounded by people following a program. Remember your not alone plus we are all dramatic!
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You are going through something incredibly hard. It’s natural during that process to have waves of different emotions. It will get a little better but it takes time. But don’t feel like something is wrong with you… the ones that really love you will understand and you can always reach out on here to vent too!
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I totally understand how your feeling Mary. I struggle everyday and sometimes I can’t talk about. People look at it like”I don’t understand why you just can’t stop think about drinking” or say you m boring now. I just focus on my kids they are my reason. Find your reason just focus on that. Again like everyone saying you have us and we understand what your going through.
Smile always,
Ana
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