Today had me struggling with my sobriety. First, I found out that the road to me getting dentures is at least 2 more appointments. So that upset me. My first thought was, "I need a drink".
Second, today was a women's only meeting and the topic was how we are with men. That is a horrible subject for me. I've only been in abusive relationships. Another reason to want to numb out and forget...
Third, I procrastinated in doing my homework for my PTSD therapy session tomorrow. I had to write an essay on what I feel was my base trauma in my life and how it has affected my life.
Lastly, I was left in my head and feeling low and alone.
I didn't drink but really wanted to.
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You sound very aware of what is causing your discomfort. I think you have reason to be proud of yourself.
You didn’t drink. Just put 1 foot in front of the other one day at a time and try to remember to be grateful for even the smallest things. You got this.
Glad you didn’t drink.
In the past I always found reasons to drink. But, then you realize it doesn't change the outcome and actually makes it worse. When I feel like that it's always good to talk to someone that understands. I also pray, pray, pray. God got you!
Fugk an essay ...flash cards are good. One topic per card. Might allow you to more freely feel your emotions that way. Trama can't always be expressed w structure. Essays are trama. Lol. Write that on a card. Additionally. What happened to you, it was wrong. It wasn't your fault. I, sincerely, am so so sorry for what you have gone through. Be a light for others in the same places. Head up. Got this.
Dentures is a very timely process. I have due to a fall on black ice in my 23rd year of life. I am not 56 and just got approved through Canada.ca for low income people. You can get a dental plan. I had an estimate done a month ago, and still no word on if it js covered. Fitting for it may take a few visits, then you have to wait for the denture to come back in, and once you have there, maybe a few visits after. It is a very timely process