Feeling off lately. Next month I’ll be achieving one year without a drink and I would think it would get easier but certain things aren’t changing. I constantly still think about it. I feel bored and empty a lot. Irritable. Lonely. Etc. sometimes I just feel a drink will be better than how I’m feeling. I deep down know where it will lead. But a lot of me still wants to be normal. To be able to have a couple drinks but I’ve been through this so many times. Need some advice. I know what to do by now but why am I still feeling unhappy
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I’ve been there twice now at the one year marker. Getting easier shouldn’t be the mindset imho because life isn’t supposed to be easy. It’s supposed to provide experience… good and bad. I just find that if I’m not drinking, I’m able to enjoy the good and work through the bad with greater clarity and presence. I have really shtty days and it’s depressing but none of them compare to the sht I felt when I was deep in my addiction. I do find I appreciate the good and bad more without alcohol and when those bad days reverse, I’m so much better prepared to go do what I want or need to do. Hang in there.
Sounds like acceptance is the issue. Accept you can’t drink safely. It’s so hard, I will pray for the release of the obsession for you to be lifted.