Feeling overwhelmed today. Allowed myself to lose control of my emotions and yelled. I just kept going, escalating the situation. Reminded me of when I drank, just feeding of that energy of losing control, blowing it all up.
Now I feel horrible.
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Oh man, I always consider.when I lose my cool and yell a sort of relapse and really get bummed out. I totally get how you feel horrible. Bottling things up and not addressing stuff right away is what made me lose my temper the last time. Was a total learning lesson, tho.
How are things now?
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Hi Kristin, thanks for reply, it does feel like a relapse. All the anxiety that came after our fights when I was drinking, the energy in the household was the same. It took me right back to drinking. It definitely put a light on that I was not doing well, feeling well. It made me really take account of my feelings and turns out saying you are ok, doesn’t make you ok.
I am doing better this morning as I have talked to someone and am waiting for a meeting now.
Thanks again
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Just have a little leniency for yourself, we are all works in progress. It’s seems like you know what todo meetings are a great start to restating your mind set, but there mite be something in your head pulling you back to your old self so look deeper down and try to find what that is (which if you’re like me you mite already know) and then do the work! You have this Ryan
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Thanks Joshua, i believe I know the underlying root cause of lashing out but I am struggling alter the emotions or my old programming
Don’t forget to be gentle with yourself, it’s all a learning lesson and we’re human. We deserve to give ourselves forgiveness.
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Hey dude reach out anytime if you need to chat
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