Sometimes you just have to give time, time. Drink plenty of water.
Also, next time you have a desire to drink again, and you will, you need to learn to play the scene forward. You need to think about what you're feeling like right now. You might feel relieved for a short period of time but sooner or later you will be right back where you are right now carrying around more guilt and having to start all over like you're doing now.
It's called believing the LIE; that this time, everything will be okay. But it never is, is it?
This comes from the doctor's opinion in the Big Book of AA.
When I first read this it opened my eyes real wide.
Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are
restless, irritable and discontented
unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks—drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the
phenomenon of craving
develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this person can experience an entire
psychic change
there is very little hope of his or her recovery.”
Can you relate?
