Feeling so lost in everything because my stinking thinking is telling me life was better with a drink. Honestly all the promises of things getting better with a sober and honest life is far from present. Im sorry to discourage anyone here, its still the right choice and journey. It’s just so hard. Just over sober five years and my life just gets harder. Not one bomb but a bunch all at once. With my alcoholic brain i want to isolate. Especially with the state of this world, this country. Now we are divided and i dont know who to trust. I haven’t felt this kind of fear in so many years. To wnd on a positive note there’s always hope and if you put the work in. Dont drink. Keep things in the moment. Ask for help. Do the next best thing. Always be kind yo yourself and others. Show up. Sleep. Eat well. Breathe. Excersize. Goto meetings or whatever works for you. Im going to keep going. I will pray for you.
Thank you for that. Very well sajd. I’m just 4 days out of residential and have been doing IOP and AA in the evening. Took me almost dying from a gunshot by an off duty police officer. Save that story for a private setting lol. 6
Months sober then I pick up the bottle again, bc I got this right??? 7 day binder and checked myself in. Have to work the program with a sponsor. Death couldn’t stop me, hopefully putting in the work will. Another day sober down. I feel good.
@megan153939
Well said. 
CONGRATULATIONS on your 5 years...as you well know we only have today. 
Will happen in life/sobriety it's part of the program. It's how we handle it that counts.
If you were on my side of the Union I'd put you to work with my animals and on my yard.
Keep up the good work.
Life is better with a drink in your hand honestly and everyone lied about your life being better once you stop drinking hence why I went back to it. At least with drinking I know the hurt and pain will soon be gone I'm old as well so life will only last but so long with drinking everyday. So finger's crossed deep dive into the pool of alcohol hoping for death soon...
I am very proud of you for the strength and resilience you show by being vulnerable. I truly cherish your perspective, especially knowing that things might not be going very well right now. Your ability to keep going and stay strong for the better days ahead is inspiring. Thank you for being amazing, even during tough times; it is admirable in many ways. Words can't express how much I appreciate you. Sending you love and positivity! 
Megan,
I too appreciate your vulnerability.
Thank you for sharing what you have.
Tiffany, yes.
I echo what you have shared here.
