My pain is so loud tonight…my old response would be to numb it, ignore it, pretend I’m ok and not feel it.
I am learning that sitting with it and actually feeling this s$&@, takes some darn courage, I’m also learning that actually feeling it makes it a little less painful the next time around.
Here’s to getting through this sober and actually dealing with it…
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Continue You are a strong SOLDIER
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I wish you find some solace … remember the pain will be there whether you use it not … wishing you luck 
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Oh I know, hence the sitting with it and feeling it. It passes much quicker that way. Well it at least eases up a bit.
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The hurt we endure in the beginning is not new pain. It's existing pain that's never been dealt with so it's had time to manifest and has most likely produced far more secondary symptoms in the commission of trying to numb it. Trying to cure our problems by pouring booze on them is no different than trying to cure cancer by putting peroxide on the affected area. Feeling those emotions are actually one of the greatest connections that tether you back to a place of humility. To feel those things. To recognize those wrongs. To discover the things you dread about yourself. But only after you get in them can you move through them. Growth is never supposed to be comfortable. But if you're hurting, it means you're still alive. And that's the blessing and overtime you'll be able to make peace with life as you place those demons in a jar on the shelf. They'll never fully be gone, but you'll have them contained. And that's where the winning in life begins.
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There's no problem that alcohol or drugs can't make worse 
happy you're here.
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Prayers
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Oh so very true and I’ve done that more times than I can count. This time I’m choosing a different path, the one that finally heals these hurts. Thanks for this reminder.
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Pain can be a great motivator can’t it… For me the only way to get over the pain is to get through it. You’re not alone we know how you feel.
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I had to paint myself into a corner. I pushed my drinking career so far that I had no escape routes left. I HAD to go through it. But that was then and this is now. Today I do not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. I’m grateful for it all. Not going around but through was necessary and I’m in a much better place because of it!! Keep your head up and keep doing the next right thing!! This too shall pass!! You got this!!
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