Yes I would love to just cut my ex out of my life too, but we have three young children together so I can’t go back to my old ways that would be so easy. Alyssa you can do this, give yourself a break I have the same struggles with it as you do, we are human. Good luck to you as well.
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Sending prayers to you for strength and courage
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Oh I get it, I did the same thing but it may have to be something less stressful for the time being.
I'm a part-time ride share driver and that is my big distraction.
Glad you are openly discussing it here, that's what we are all here for. That support structure.
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Same here, echoing what Nicole Cordone relayed.
Sorry that you are dealing with all of this, ugh.
The laws are super whack and seem to favor men behaving badly ( never every case obviously/while far too many ).
Sometimes even if I know that “ this too shall pass “, I still wanna hear “ guess what / this sucks “!
Virtual hugs.
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Cindy, thank you so much for the advice. I’m definitely trying. I feel where I have periods of feeling peace and calmness and other times feeling very angry, hopeless and resentful. I know every day isn’t going to be a good day and I have to actually accept that. I’ve been working so so hard on this journey and I guess some of my patience is wearing out. But you’re right, it’s not on my time and I need to work on accepting that. I need to use this time wisely. I’ll try to remember that. 
I’ve been meaning to do that for months. I’m making a goal to start tomorrow. I’ve been avoiding it. 
Honestly read page 552 in Big book maybe 562 I’m pretty sure it’s 552 it talks about resentments
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Sarim, 
thank you. Yup, yup it really does suck.
Being patient is one of the hardest things I think especially when you feel things are unfair.
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I’m sorry to hear you’re dealing w all this. I’m sending vibes your way for a smooth resolution to your custody hearings.
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I went to church solo as well. I’m going to message you.
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A joke that is not funny. I did everything possible legally and still having issues getting a court date. Parental kidnapping isn't enough of a emergency. SMH keep your head up and don't drink. You got this! -Victor27
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Its amazing the community that we are building here. You are apart of something bigger and making a difference everyday
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Where are you located? I'm in MA and am an attorney that represents people with mental illness / addiction problems. We have a family law wing that helps reunite families when the mental health of parents is used as weapon against them over custody issues. Sorry you're going through this. I'll say a prayer for you tonight before bed.
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Sounds like we’re walking similar paths. Please feel free to reach out to me, it might be good for both of us.
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Part of being sober is taking back your power, taking back control of your life? If you concentrate on the things you can control, you, you can take that toxic control away from him? I hope that makes sense? The law is the law and if you are doing what they want you are taking back your power. Good luck with your son.
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We have bad days, better days, and actually not so bad days. In deep despair, try to remember that you WILL find a little bit of joy and happiness hidden within the darkest storm.
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I totally understand where you are coming from. I have been there. I will start off this by saying you went to the right place. While yes AA and fellowship/support from other addicts is important, it never is more important than your relationship with God. Anyone who tells you otherwise doesn’t understand their transformation yet. Second, you do need to have a support system such as AA. I go to AA and a recovery group at my church. Recovery isn’t about the addiction though, it is about you and helps you recover from the past and understand Gods role in it. AA or a similar program should be used to have a support system that enables you to have advice from people who have been where you are and have a place to discuss what’s going on in your life.
As for what you have going on…you are on the right track. God will provide and see you through this. In the Bible God make promises that I have experienced during my life. On is, “When the time is right, I the lord will make it happen.” Isaiah 60:22. Remember we are on his time and his plan. Jeremiah 29:11 says, For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
I could go on but I wanted to tell you that the frustration is normal. Fix what you can control and trust in God and he will provide the rest. If you ever need to talk I am a message away.
Yes you are going through a lot right now. Step 4 is tough enough as it is.
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Wow. Dual Masters. That's impressive. You bring back a lot of bad memories for me. I had to pay so much child support when I was younger, deal with my ex and her live in boyfriend, my girlfreind who couldn't stay sober, courts etc.
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Excellent, I'm glad it is working out for you at least in being a safe place to be. I grew up Catholic too, surrounded by nutty holy rollers as well and I have never been more allergic to that mentality more than now. Yuck
Keep doing the real, in real life work it takes. Keep building and learning on your sister's. Please please please do not rely on "prayer" as one guy keeps hammering on about. Nothing fails like only praying. Do what it takes, the work.
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