So ive drank since i was 14 heavily. And contiued the heavy drinking till 32, gonna be 33 in december. Ive cause a lot of trouble. Processing it is tough. The crying and feeling shitty it hurts. But today ive decided to let it go. I cant continue to hold onto the pain and resent myself. Finding peace is tough, this is probably what the 5-7 or 9 steps are for in AA. But today im forgiving myself and moving forward. Every day i wake up and say to myself: “today im going to be a better person”. Ive decided to be the light in others life and be uplifting. I chef for a living, currently made the switch to live outta my car. And the savings have been astronomical. Giving to those that are hurting feels good. Paying off debts, finding peace, being a voice against corruption. These are positive things i am proud to have in my life. Booze, it truely is a terrible depressant.
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