Yesterday was my first day and it’s amazing how entitled we feel when we put in a days work at a job we hate. The cravings began around 2. Got a call for a friend to take me to dinner (drink) took the plunge was begging God to help me, another friend had a bad day and wanted to drink. She called me and said, “your still not drinking” I said, “no, I just had water” she started crying and said how proud she was of me. I wanted to go drink with her to show her I’m no better than her but I let it go. I really don’t want to go backward. Day 13.
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One of the great things about sobriety is that we don't have to just put up with a job we hate anymore. We have freedom. We don't have to just go through the motions. Now that we are not applying ourselves to getting wasted, we can apply ourselves in other areas that allow us to be upwardly mobile, in all areas.
It is silly to force ourselves to be "grateful" for something we don't like. We don't have to accept everything that is unfulfilling. That's basically telling yourself "I'm garbage and this is what I deserve so I'll accept it". We are free to make changes. It doesn't have to stop at sobriety.
I really appreciate tgat and I agree. I am looking to prompt or get another job. Being sober will allow me to do that. I just passed a promotional exam, internally and just interviewed for the fire department: I feel like it went well. Thank you for that reminder 
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That is awesome!! Some things we have to accept like I will never be able to fly by flapping my arms, I just have to accept that. No matter how much people tell me "you can do anything you want", shoving feathers up my bütt just won't make me a bird. But more reasonable things like doing a job that I like, for better pay etc is absolutely achievable if I don't hold myself back with self deprecating thoughts like being grateful for something that makes me miserable. Thinking like this is how slaves are created.
We want better, we can have better.
I love it! Thank u so much, honestly, I have a very Cush job, the pay is great, as well as benefits but the morale is horrible and in all fairness, I’ve been hungover for 8 years: masked as illnesses. No one respects me, as it is. I just don’t feel like I’m involved in anything important which sucks-o hate coming to work but I’m trying every day to be positive.
Ya know, sometimes it helps to think of it this way: When you clock off and go home, your job stays there and you leave. With what some people call "better jobs", usually those jobs follow you home. You never really have your time off. Sometimes the best thing a job can do is pay the bills and leave you alone when you aren't there. Not a bad way to look at it, right?
That’s what this does. I think I’m just frustrated because I know I can do better/more but really it’s my own fault. I waiver on whether to suck it up or leave. I’ll probably move on; I need to have something to live for to be proud of. I’ve been through too much here.
Work doesn't have to be the thing your proud of. Work can pay the bills and you can do some good shït out of work that makes you happy and that you're proud of, right? Our jobs are not the measure of our worth. Don't think that. It's just a means to an end. You can do something awesome outside of work.
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Your right. Plus I have a hit/run and a DUI that I have not disclosed. Since promoting here would require a dmv print out; I don’t think I can :(. Another dept doesn’t require driving; neither does the fire department 
No matter what, stay sober!
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It's early. Keep doing the work. Remember, early on in recovery, they will get you drunk or high before you get them clean or sober.
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This is true. I still struggle though.
That's right, Starr! Day 13 going on 14!! We do recover. 
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