Five years booze-free...and on June 7th I lost my 16 year old senior kitty furbaby Omar...he passed on unexpectedly and quickly from an embolism. Feeling like a dry drunk grieving him...grief is not something I ever struggled through without a drink. It's funny, even in long-term sobriety, you can get lost emotionally without ever craving a drop. Omar was the gentlest cat. He loved everyone and slept on my head every night...our last 5 & 1/2 years, I have been sober & I am grateful to Omar for saving my Life. He Loved me & beckoned me home Out of every drunk situation for the majority of our 16 years together. He is my higher power. I miss my furbaby. I'm vulnerable, raw...the spectrum of emotions is grand. But as I held him for an hour after he'd passed in the mourning room...I promised him "Omar, you were my motivation to get sober. Thank you for protecting me. I promise you Omar, I will never give up on staying sober for you...for me...for us..." It's a vulnerable time. But his legacy is part of my recovery. To Omar, my big MoMo. August 2007-June 2022. This ex-alchy cat momma misses her midnight familiar and sends love and light to you, your memory.
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I'm sorry for your loss. That's inspiring he was and will continue to be your motivation to stay sober. Kudos to sticking to your sobriety through this time, I couldn't imagine what that must feel like. I wish you all the best and healing through this. 
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I am so sorry for your loss, Omar was beautiful and he will always look out for you. Stay the course and remain strong. Hugs 
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Loss of a pet or a loved one sucks. Glad you are holding to your sobriety through it.
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