I’ve gotten clean from multiple substances before. But I’ve always gone back to drinking. Outside of alcohol, I smoke weed, occasionally use psychedelics for therapeutic purposes. I’ve been clean from pain pills for 7 years and street drugs for 9. I’ve had stints of sobriety from alcohol and mj, but I’ve never had a reason to quit for myself. I recently graduated so I have a good reason to take a tolerance break from weed and put in some job applications. I’ve never had a personal reason to quit drinking though. I’ve tried getting clean for my husband, but we all know that’s not how it works. This St. Patrick’s day I stole kitchen whiskey from my job and almost got caught. I’m 30 years old! What the? I could easily have lost my job, management did notice, they just never saw anything so they couldn’t catch anybody. And one of my friends had been fired the day before for basically nothing. I’ve come so far but I’m surprised that I just didn’t care about what I could loose. I just wanted a drink and not to think about anything in that moment, so I risked everything. If I got fired, especially for drinking, my husband will leave me. I’m broke and paying off debt, but I’m making more now than I ever have and cans pay my bills even though I still can’t afford food. Why did I risk that? I think I found my reason to quit for myself.
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