Outstanding to have this app, this is my first check-in. My clean date is September 16th 2025. I asked my higher power crying after my last hit of crack to please help deliver me from this monster that I had become. I literally say monster because I had lost myself in smoking crack. I quit smoking cigarettes at the same time but still cheat with the Vape LOL. Everyone that shares their stories I read and learn from them. The benefits outweigh the cravings but the drug dreams still get me. I have been driving strength courage and Hope and above all peace from a good support system. I go to dual diagnosis classes because I have the mental illness of bipolar one and drug and alcohol addictions. One day at a time. I will be an addict for the rest of my life and that's okay as long as I do the next right thing! God bless everyone on their Journey I'm 64 it's time! Hugs and kisses love Lauren Marston
I also lost myself in active addiction. Truly. I have been clean for just over one year and still have frequent drug dreams. Congrats on finding yourself again and on your clean time. Thanks for your post.
Congratulations good job 
Thank you Nate for your support love you
So glad you’re here. Sharing our stories helps more than we know sometimes. Proud of you and rooting for you!
Thank you Chrissy for your support love you
Thank you for your feedback. I feel myself honestly getting stronger every day. Today is my mom's birthday she passed years ago. And I know that she would be very proud of me now. I've dreaded tomorrow though. My husband Gilbert died 2018 the 10 days later baby love sister Eliza died on Christmas Day. I have used that excuse to mess up every year since then, this year I made up my mind to feel my feelings and get through it clean and sober I must break the cycle. With my higher powers strong and comforting help who is our Lord Jesus Christ he will get me through it. God bless you and I'm proud of you love Lauren
Thank you for sharing🙏
And, welcome to the community!!
Welcome Lauren! I’m 65 and coming up on 3 years - you can do this!