Friday night and bored!

Recovery
#1

Without boozing I don’t know what to do with myself. Nothing is appealing. Sitting alone on my couch watching YouTube. Ugh

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#4

There’s a cool zoom meeting in Hawaii at 10 eastern 7 pacific. Starts in 20 minutes.

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: Meeting ID: 217 731 336 Password: 19350610

#7

Really dry stuff. Coding tutorials. Lol! I just am not in the mode for escapism/fiction which is usually what I do when I’m drinking. Really just not in a mood to do anything and it’s been like this the last few days

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#8

Thanks!

#10

It’s a 12 step speaker meeting. Someone tells their story. What they used to be like. What they did to get sober. And how life is now. Last week it was spectacular.

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#11

Have you worked any steps yet

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#12

I went to a meeting & then burritos afterwards with a few guys in the fellowship. There are things to do in sobriety, if you want it. Remember, your disease wants you all alone.

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#13

Me last night, I ended up poppin on a audio book and walked a couple miles. It definitely helped. You got this!

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#14

Thanks all. The boredom and cravings passed. I remembered words I heard on a podcast recently, any time you’re in a “moment” you don’t like, just allow yourself 20 minutes without reacting. Everything passes

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#15

No I don’t currently do 12 step though I’ve thought about it. I don’t like the term “alcoholic” and think it’s scientifically inaccurate (we can all become dependent on alcohol), and I’m atheist

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#16

Honest question, why are you reaching out if you're rejecting the suggestions of others who've gotten sober. Dismissing a viable option without even trying it is contempt prior to investigation. My sponsor came to AA a hardcore atheist & has over 16 years. The people here are throwing you a lifeline, you may want to grab it.

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#17

I’ve tried it. Not for me. I never condemned it just explained why I’m not strongly considering it

#18

I don't subscribe to any religion the Higher Power is a moving target as I go down this path. For example in my experience as of today Truth,Forgiveness, Synchronicity, Willingness to actively help when I am unhappy, Insides matching my outsides, The Current Moment, Challenges, Successes, A Phone Call from someone in need of my help, Mathematics, Reality in and of itself, Laughter and on and on. I don't ever stop finding my Higher Power to me it is endless. The first 100 were a mixed bag and there were plenty of Atheists reeling Bill W in on his Christian leanings, yes I see the fingerprints of Christianity but I also get a Buddhist feel as well when I read. From my understanding the 12 steps provide a set of guidelines that make your insides match your outsides and mend our harms to others so we can live and breathe again. I see them as a mechanical process that produces a spiritual connection to this Reality we live in. The original Oxford Steps are 6:

  1. Complete deflation
  2. Dependance and Guidance from a Higher Power
  3. Moral inventory
  4. Confession
  5. Restitution
  6. Continued work with other alcoholics
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    Sorry for the late reply haven't got on here in a few 24s have a great day out there
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