Friday was going to be my 30 days. I smoked

Recovery
#1

Friday was going to be my 30 days. I smoked yesterday and today because I didn’t know it would make me have to start over. Now I’m being told I have to start over. I’ve never felt so heart broken.

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#2

Don’t give up, you got this. For me I choose not to smoke so I can come out my cloudy self. I can see things clearly and work my program properly. That’s my experience but you’re doing well just stick with the one day at a time!!

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#3

The anon programs tend to be a bit punitive and obsess over dates/milestones…and god. Dont sweat the slip, just get back on track. Check out SmartRecovery.org, way better program than the anon preaching.

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#4

The "have to start over" is pretty subjective. I have also heard it called "California sober". Everyone travels their own path and your mileage may vary... just don't beat yourself up along the way!

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#5

I was talking about this with a friend who attends Aa regularly. He said if you are doing anything to get high, then you should start over. If you are doing something for medicinal purposes, then it's OK and no need to start over. That made sense to me.

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#6

I wouldn't sweat this toooo much, I know there is a lot of pressure on the start over thing, but I stopped looking at it that way as it makes it seem like your almost 30 days wasn't an achievement and it was. For example out of the past 96 days I've drank 3 times, thats 93 sober days I'm not gonna ignore that progress

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#7

I never let anyone else tell me about my recovery or clean date.

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#8

In my opinion, I don’t think I should have to start over because I was quite literally unaware that it would set me back because if I knew that I would have never done it. But since everyone else thinks I need too, I am because I don’t want to get my 30 day chip and everyone look at me like a fraud. AA has disappointed me in this one

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#10

It doesn’t matter how everyone one else looks at you it is how you look at yourself. AA gives you the guide to a new way of life, but it clearly says we all have our own path. It sounds like not drinking for 30 days was a huge accomplishment and one you should be proud of. The only relationship you need to worry about is the one between you and your higher power.

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#11

Hey Bri most of us have started over at least once. What worked well for you, and what didn't work?

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#12

Ur clean time is UR clean time and nooone else’s!

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