friends i need to share another victory. this one is extremely important to me. suffice it to say that someone got me extremely angry today after an already agitating series of events. i got off the phone and i was absolutely livid to the point where i could feel an energy building up inside of me. the voices of addiction immediately started trying to convince me to break my streak, to give up, that people are shit and i was honestly ready to just throw my sobriety away in an instant. all i had to do was get in my car and in 5 minutes i would have alcohol in my hands. instead there was another voice that came in. i’ll call it the voice of reason. it had something else to say to me. it said “Luke - acting on emotions is like letting a child drive a car.” this is something i heard in a video and wow does that ever ring true in my HONEST history. i’m an emotional dude and i don’t like perceived injustice or wrongdoing. i did something new this time though…i meditated and i kept meditating, despite the “attacks” that came on and the energy in my body. i pushed through those and i literally seemed to disappear off the planet. when i came back, the solution seemed so obvious. i called the person back, worked out a compromise and everyone ended up happy. how in the hell have i come so far? today is one of the greatest wins i can remember. i hope my victory inspires someone to push through as well. the feeling of being loving to yourself and others is worth all the hell it takes to get there. best of luck to all. there is great hope to be had. we can win, even against our own programming!
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