Frog in throat

Recovery
#1

I’m beating myself up for clamming up at a meeting today.

I’m recovering from being sick, my personal life is all out of whack .. and I hadn’t been to a meeting in a week.

I barely shared, I didn’t feel authentic and this is the first time I’ve left a meeting feeling heavy.

Food for thought to … LAY IT ALL OUT THERE. Bare your soul, even if you’re worried about taking up too much space… that energy, those words, they deserve to be out there

The opposite of addiction is connection.

One day at a time.

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#2

Just keep swimming just keep swimming. I didn't open up right away either. But once I did there are probably some that wish I wouldn't have.

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#3

:rofl: :purple_heart: thank you.

#4

You are welcome.

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#6

Let it go. Don’t beat yourself up. It happens. It’s great that you are aware of how you feel, and you have other outlets to let it all out. Use us, call a friend in the fellowship, get/call a sponsor etc. Go to bed sober. Tomorrow is another day

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#8

If we can talk about it, we can live with it.

Keeping in mind “we share in a GENERAL way”

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#9

Truth, let it out now brother

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#10

I'm in AA and have been for 2+ years. I know people get pushy about new people sharing etc but you don't have to do anything you don't wanna do until you're ready. .

Hang in there.

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#11

I agree don’t let anyone push you to share if you are not ready. Theres magic in the rooms n the good message seeps in every pore.Dont know about you, but in active use n consumed anything I could shake loose every day if I could. Now I work n live my Program every single day.My Life is completely entertwined in my Program n service work, Fellowship, sponsees etc. Rich, satisfuingsupportive and joyful. Only upsides. Wishing all of you a beautiful day in Recovery. Sky B​:last_quarter_moon::full_moon_with_face::crescent_moon::star2::dizzy::tulip::sun_with_face:🪶:sparkles::pray:t4::hibiscus:

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#13

The most important thing is sharing because it sure helps especially with people in that same recovery journey. Your share can help someone else :pray:

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#14

Not always easy

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#15

I have felt the exact same way after meetings!! I always second guessed what I said, how I said it, what I didn't say, etc etc etc etc etc...it wasn't until a friend in the program told me "No one thinks about Andrew as much as Andrew does" and it hit home for me. I'm not as important as I think, and naturally human beings think about themselves more than they think of others. Speaking from the heart, and from my own experience is the only thing that I can do at a meeting. I had to learn that no matter what I shared at a meeting, it was exactly what God intended me to share.

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#16

Hi. Been thinking about you. Hope you and your family are well :pray::pray::pray:

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#17

Hey dm me I have a question

#18

Thanks! You, too!

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#19

No matter how hard your life is going to get. You will know the time when your true story will come out. The Lord will unlock your shell, and out will emerge the most valuable and beautiful pearl he has bestowed in you.

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#20

Ye it took some time to realize I don’t need to worry about what i am gonna say and judge my self for it that i am been judged by others. Than the ego came down and the truth just came out. I even used to share that i don’t want to share because because i don’t feel authentic lol

#21

You’ve got this one moment at a time. The more you try the easier it’ll become. Congrats!

#22

I have those moods at times as well. Especially if people are already sharing what I'm thinking about or experiencing. Lol. But if you gotta get it out then get it out. I had a sponsor say don't leave here with what you came with. Put it all on the table.

#23

@megs231140 ... All I'm going to add is what everyone, who has posted before me, said. They all speak the truth.
Don't beat yourself up over it. Meetings are our safe place just like here.
You got this my friend.