I knew I had a problem with drugs and alcohol from a very young age. It all started with codeine and ADHD medicine as I was missed diagnosed along with 99% of my generation. My addiction took no time hijacking my life and sending me to the hospital. By the age of 12 I was in my first of many rehabilitation treatment centers, I wish I could say I learned my lesson and turned my life around but it only got way worse for me as highschool approached. I began drinking alcohol mainly on weekends as a teenager. By the tenth grade I was skipping class to hang out at degenerate friends houses diving farther into a downward spiral of pain and suffering. Here me this kid who had no reason to have a problem with drugs and alcohol, I wasn't abused physically, emotionally, sexually, I had every advantage growing up that I needed to succeed, yet I still chose to throw myself deeper and deeper into a life that would eventually keep killing me one-day at a time through my 20's and 30's, I somehow managed to emulate life as a normal person by having two beautiful children whom when I'm sober I am actually a really great parent. I managed to turn my life around post quarantine COVID 19 and entered yet another long term PHP program. I was sober for a year and a half, I had an amazing job, a great family life and sober supportive friends. I still managed to relapse hard last year as soon as I left my program. I was out there doing more field research for a few months until January where on New Year's day I got severe alcohol poisoning and spent 8 days in critical care, I finally had to go back to treatment, now I have 3+ months, and my story is far from over, I have a good support group, family, a medical assisted treatment of vivitrol and a much more open mind than all the times before. Recovery is possible, it just takes a lot of fighting through darkness and never giving up!!
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