Gambling,meth,down

Iam so ready to make the change for good! I already been to treatment so many times, but im going 1 more time! Next week on December 24th ill be in treatment! My first second Christmas n second newyrs in treatment! I got this! I just feel like my body can't handle another Bender, iam to old for this s**t! Its not even fun anymore its actually very depressing n sad for me to use now because i dont have any user friends anymore, ive isolated myself, but its a good thing,all of this time alone, made me realize what matters to me! Its me n my happiness n peace, my self Worth, self confidence,self esteem,, it's making memories w my son's! and rn atm im really struggling with gambling i literally has $200 yesterday, good guy gave it to me, to buy myself stuff for treatment,but i went into the pub to just throw in$20, i ended up spending all of my $200, in like 10 min! I didn't even save myself sum $ for a cab back home n it was freezing the other night, n i didn't buy myself one thing that i actually need! God give me the strength to stop being so impulsive w my money every time I have it, i want to start saving money n making money n getting outta dept but atm my only choice is bankruptcy, i failed a consumer proposal, n my credit score is so low, its embarrassing! Plus i want to get my baby boy n baby sister outta foster Care! Im also planning on going to school after im completed treatment god bless me with the strength and courage to get outta my comfort zone n start challenging myself to start being a better sober and clean romodel for my kiddos to look up 2, and for me to start being proud of the person i am about to become! The thought is there n the drive is kinda there its jyst really the fear n my sudden illness i devoloped scoliosis n how weak ive become, n the fact im still healing from my lossof my child 2yrs ago n my super abusive ex bf who was a narsissist the. Trama he caused me! Im still dealing with alot if grief n loss i have such bad sleep habits because of my mental health issues are seeming to be deterreating! I just want to feel normal n happy b safe and whole again?

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You got this one this treatment. It's going to work this time for you. And you'll be able to be a better role model for your kids. Get Your family out of foster care? It's hard and sucks, especially being alone in time like this i Understand your frustration. I'm starting my recovery and this is the first time. Since I was 13 years old that I've been by myself an alone. It scares me so bad. It makes me want to go back and use more. But I keep trying to be strong and not do it for my kiddos, you can too. If you need someone to talk to i'm always around

Welcome

You can do this keep fighting the fight. It’s not always easy but it’s always worth it.

I’m really proud of you. I know the struggles feel heavy, but the fact that you’re recognizing what matters and making the choice to take care of yourself is huge. You’ve already shown so much strength, and each step you take, even if it feels small, is bringing you closer to the life you want for you and your kids.

Don’t be too hard on yourself. You’re healing, and healing isn’t linear. The fact that you’re staying committed to getting better, despite the challenges, is powerful. You’ve got a whole community behind you rooting for you! :heart:

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I'm praying for you Shannon and I'm in a treatment center right now so it's going be just fine you got this l believe in you...

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User friends are overrated. Like, what are we gonna do, put our heads together?

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Congrats!!! You never have to go thru this again. Choose your sobriety over all else. Over finance, romance and even family. You do that, and you’ll have an awesome life🚀

One day at a time