I’ve been feeling rlly good sober lately. I haven’t had many urges to use and it’s WILD to me. In the past when trying to get sober all I could think about is how this and that would be better high. Im okay with when I’m at work and it’s slow. I used to get so high at work to make the time pass by but lately I’ve embraced the slowness and just hang out. It helps that I like my coworkers and the job isn’t too stressful. I haven’t felt this genuinely ok and balanced since never. I don’t think i’ve ever felt just ok / fine.
I’ve been crying out for years sleeping all day trying to self medicate and my parents just saying it’s teen stuff. Finally was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and got on medication. Let me tell you the meds WORK. My anxiety filled suicidal intrusive thoughts are no longer prevalent. Not every little thing triggers me to think omgg if i could just die right now would be great why can’t i die already i’ve seen it i’ve done it i get it i don’t want to participate.
Now I feel like I want to participate and it’s fun. Group therapy also helped a lot and I learned how to grow.
((I skipped a few days of my meds just to test if I rlly needed them and those were the worse days all the thoughts came back and I felt rlly rlly down again.))
If you have been feeling like this for years and just trying to feel ok inside. I know it’s cheesy but you are not alone and I understand what your going through. Depression is real and it’s hard. You are so strong for anything you do. Sobriety is the first step to feeling ok.
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Thank you... for all that about the sobriety and themedication... it can be helpful
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Thank you, this was a really good share.
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It works when they get it right. I am so happy for you 
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Thank you for sharing same here same feelings The steps worked for me outside help worked my meds for depression, anxiety work. You Rox Sobriety Rox, Everyone reading Keep Coming Back .
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Thank you.
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!!!! keep coming back one day at a time it will happen for you. trust yourself ⊂((≧⊥≦))⊃