I just had to jump on here and say this. I know I haven't been on here in a while but this is across my mind today throughout my recovery. I remember the 1st day I got clean. I was intrigued and I didn't want to call that day. My recovery date because I came in high. So I pretty much named the next day. My recovery date, which was the 11th. I spent all that time in treatment. And when I came home, my plan was to start getting back to myself but I was scared. Do you not remember the first time? I got my food stamps back and I went to the grocery store. And I felt like I didn't know how to be a woman. And shop normally because I have been in the streets were so long so when I went into the grocery store, I found myself buying everything even some things that I didn't need because I was just so happy and it felt so good inside not to SAIL something for drug that was on a-gonna leave me. Satisfied for a minute. I got home. A plan this extravagant dinner for myself. And I got over the stove. And I started cooking and I put some music on in the backgro. And then I went outside and I sat on the patio. And? I had this feeling that came over me like yeah, you can do this and everything's gonna be okay, that's how I knew, right? Then that I was going to beat my addiction, that feeling, that I felt I never wanted to stop feeling it. I would go to work. I could go shopping. I could take myself out to dinners. I could do all of these things for myself, only If I Stay clean and I got you thinking, what if I could do this always and that Put such a smile on my face. No human has ever made me feel like I felt that day I went in. I finished my dinner. I posted it and I asked my roommates, did they want anything? Everybody was so happy. Because it was a soulful meal for one and maybe would not tell you. I could cook. I can cook. I found mye again and I never want to lose me ever again so to say this to you, if you are struggling in any kind of way. Just remember how it felt the 1st Day Out of treatment and back into your new life. I wish you all the best and I pray. That we're all knocking a diction in the head because it has taken so many of our friends have family are so s###. And nobody nobody deserves to suffer like that.I am still sponsoring and I am still available for anybody that wants to talk about recovery.Let's do this together.Let's save each other one day at a time
Inspiring. I woke up 67 days ago and said no . I’m not doing this anymore. I deserve better. A friend of mine died 4 days before I decided to stop . Iv user , meth and coke. Since I was 13 . God is putting me back together . I am finding myself . Life was good . Until I woke up one night and my body was on fire , nothing could put it out. Now I’m also battling menopause. WTHeck , I mean , wtheck? I can laugh or cry I choose laughter
I love that! It's taken me 7 months to get to that day, and it was worth every agonizing second of day one to day 60. And back again. But I too know that feeling and it's the best feeling that you could only know...if you know. And I am soo grateful that I know. Thank you for posting this. For those of you that don't know yet, you can and you will. If you keep your a** planted in a program or anyplace without drugs or alcohol, etc., keep your feet firmly planted no matter how much you get that itch to run, and you will. Don't. Just sit there, and listen to the advice of others that have been able to know themselves. Don't do it your way, your way landed you wherever you're at that you wish you weren't. And do the next right thing. We as humans know what is right. And before you "know" it, you'll too "know" it. Best of Luck to All! It's A Great place to be.
It's awesome you found that piece of yourself again. I’m here cheering you on, one day at a time.
Amazing Kasey. I quit meth years ago, and I guess replaced with coke. Day 6 clean from that.
That’s awesome Heather . Hang in there. You deserve to be the best you as I do . I’m proud of you .
Thank you! I feel awful, but I know it's going to get better.
Hey ladies thank u all so much for the advice and support because as we all know that our best thinking got us high so I have to learn to take advice from someone else 
Love this and so inspiring iykyk!