God, I wish I was normal

Recovery
#1

I’m not talking about the “oh I wish I could just drink and not have a problem” bullsh*t.

I’m talking about normal at LIFE, itself. You know, be able to have friends, people that like me, a girl. Hel|, I’d like to GET LAID again before I die…

Saw an obvious first date couple on the bridge when I was taking my bike ride. He wasn’t even that good looking either, but they were together. Everyone else I see out in public are always paired off. The only people I see that are alone are old men.

I hate knowing there’s something so wrong with me that no one has wanted me for over a decade. I know nobody is even going to care on this app but at least I’ll post here because it’s an app for people to be honest about their suffering.

I wish I was normal

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#2

This is a narrative that you keep telling yourself. It’s so hard wired into your brain that you’re stuck on this pattern of thinking. You don’t have to be any taller, smarter, wealthier, funnier, better looking, or have more hair . Truth is you are enough. You have everything you need. I know you dislike therapy, or at least paying someone to help you, but I think a good therapist could really help you process some issues and begin to heal. I only say this because I care. You’re a good man! You deserve some happiness. You’re going to have to try something different. What have you got to lose?

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#3

I've felt similar in the past. It is a lie that kept me enslaved. Personally I've learned to see myself as a creation of God with talents and purpose. Not everyone pursues that but I believe it to be true. But feeling like something is wrong with me is something that has come and gone since I was a teenager. Truth is for me there's a better approach. Not sure if this is helpful but you're not alone in these feelings, and you don't have to believe the associated thoughts.

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#4

I am right there with ya

#5

Raymond! Your not alone my friend. I was thinking the same way a couple months ago. I told myself that I’m not going down that path of negative self talk/thinking. I had to switch up my thinking and outlook upon life. I was comparing, just like what you said. I’m putting my trust in God. I’m also manifesting a woman that matches my energy levels. I’m writing down my ideals list. Telling the universe what I desire in a relationship. Then I must live up to those ideals. For the last three years I’ve been working on me. Every once in awhile I try to take back my will power. That always leads to misery. So today I choose God’s will to bring me what I need when I need it.
Hang in there buddy! More will be revealed. Keep the faith… stop comparing yourself to others and get out there and date. I’ll pray for you my friend.
Have a wonderful day

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#6

Like I’ve mentioned before in our DM’s, I feel the exact same. It’s very hard.

#8

I too am dealing with the same issues. But you know what I wake up say a prayer and start my day, thats how im dealing with the feelings. as hard as it is I am leaving it all IN GODS hands. If ther is someone out there for me he will bring her to me. I am a good person and all of you are as well. We are here because we have courage and strength and have done something many can't! God Bless!

#9

Yes sir re,
Very well put.

Yeah, society is geared for couples and families. Im using all of the commercials
or scripted shows for example.

Only time you see a single dude is with a dog food commercial

I would imagine thats why all those dudes gave up, hanging in a bar constantly

It aint no joke it is rough

Thats ok, hang in there because everything cuts both ways. Im sure the female pop has similar issues.