I am going to rehab ext week for 9 weeks. Doing part mental health and part addiction. I don’t get to leave the property, which is 50acres. I guess I will have lots of walking. I am having a hard time with not having my wife and kids around and it’s fucken scary. My mind is going in all different directions, making sh—t up that isn’t true. The anxiety the hurt, twisted thoughts and paranoia is brutal. I just left my church 12 step program which is great but have these twisted feeling. I know this will get better I know there is a lot of people struggling with me. Of to meditate then bed. I just feel a little better putting my rough time I am having.
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First of all, it sounds like an opportunity of a lifetime, so you need to look at it like that. I went to a 30 day inpatient treatment center they gave you and put you in your own apartment. I promise you you’re gonna have a great time learning about your disease and everything else that you need to learn about including yourself. Will you run for Marcel for so long and then we find ourselves it takes us for a loop so if anything you need to be prepared of finding yourself and what exactly that means to you
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Take full advantage of it Jeff!..You're going to learn how to live life without all the insanity we were living with. Your family will love you even more for what you're doing for yourself!..
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Stay strong! You got this!
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Thanks for the encouragement 
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Hey man. Stay connected with others. If you’ve already experienced a 12 step program, I hope you keep coming back. From my experience, I’m an over thinker over analytical and prejudice toward trying anything new. Until I started working the steps and being guided by a person who had experience and knowledge to help.
If you’re honest, open minded and willing. You can accomplish a lot. I believe you can do great things dude. Keep it up and don’t let your mind wander too far.
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Alcoholics and addicts want immediate gratification. It’s part of the disease. Life doesn’t operate on our time. I’m glad you have gone to meetings and are meditating. The impasse you are now in offers a heightened possibility for faster more far reaching change from the crisis mode to a more effective life. I encourage you to keep an open mind and embrace the whole process.
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Hey Jeff. I’ve been in your shoes. I went to rehab. It was the scariest day of my entire life, and the lowest point in my life. Couldn’t be with my kids, job, house ect. But….. it was exactly what I needed!!! I was with amazing people. We all had one thing in common, addiction to something. I felt at home like I wasn’t a freak. That’s when the healing started. That was 20 months ago. I’m sober and happy. Enjoy your time there and really put in the work. It’ll be worth it!!
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