Going to be hitting my 12th month adderall (60MG) daily. In the beginning it was great, accomplished a lot but I can tell it’s wreaking havoc in my buddy and gives me non stop urges ti use tobacco and drink more than I used to. My mind knows I need to be done.
Any other Busy professionals on this that decided to hang it up?
Yea me. I use to take about 100mg and mail it on about everything, it became my identity and drive but got to the point where it was going against me as well I was drinking on it smoking cigs etc. I wouldn’t sleep or eat and eventually crash. It was a sick cycle. I finally just hung it up awhile back and it was tough to get readjusted to work without it I would work out on it and all the nice so yea I had to re reach my brain to work without that intensity. For awhile I was dragging hard and wasn’t doing much at work like I use to at 200% it stung not being able to perform at that level but I realized I’d rather perform at my level than a level of fallacy. I knew I wasn’t able to keep up with that way of life forever. Adderal was just a crutch and the idea that it’s helping me w it h everything became my lie and I believed it I believed I couldn’t accomplish nearly as much not on it and life will be hard. But the high you get from accompanying something not on it or any substance became my high I feel empowered when I complete tasks as if I’m Finally getting some control over my life and how I feel.
Trust me man it’s going to suck at first you’ll maybe drag or not but you’ll perform clearly and respectfully. You’ll get things done authentically not through a drug to help you perform.
Sounds to me like you are not only addicted but also working your life away. I don’t know your story, but I will say in sobriety balance is my key. I work hard, when I am working but I balance that with plenty of relaxation and spending the quiet moments with my family. I used to be the work all the time, gotta get it done kinda guy. And At the end of the day I would drink so I could forget about the job. There are other reasons but that was a big part of it. After I found the balance my work is so much more rewarding. And my family and marriage is 100 times better. I hope you find your balance man.