Grateful to be healthier and more aware of the internal and external false naratives that shackled me in past. They’re fueled and manifested as negativity, anger and poor self talk. This head space deteriorates my self worth and eventually isolates me for extended periods which is where “you know who” wants me. Beeing aware now and healthier, I can shift perspectives to alter my current paradigm. This helps me see the breadcrums left to the trap, and hopefully avoid.
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Great post! I had been running from myself for decades, until I collapsed and couldn’t run anymore. Sitting with my thoughts was extremely painful and difficult. I was only able to do so with the help of others in recovery who loved me and encouraged me on this inner journey of discovery. I lacked the power to confront myself, and always chose to numb myself. I found more power in the rooms of AA. The meetings really helped. My sponsor helped me. The fellowship helped me. Like you said in your post, becoming aware and present was the beginning of learning and eventually healing. I couldn’t do this without help. Maybe others can, but for the majority of us I suggest getting help with your recovery
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Don’t disappear on us, that’s when you need people the most. What usually helps you get through when you start spiraling?