Good Afternoon! I'm just curious; how was YOU'RE experience, at 60 days clean? I'm about to come up on 60 days, and I still feel depressed, low energy..I keep seeing posts where people with 60 days are "Feeling Great" or that they are feeling more alive than they ever have...I feel frustrated, because I haven't experienced my "Pink Clouds and Butterflies" moment...
At my 60 days… it was terrible. I was still full of anger, hated not drinking, was full of regrets, didn’t like myself, dry drunk…. It wasn’t until I completed my 4/5th step. I did have the energy boost around a month or so, but it dropped and I was stagnant for 4 months. It will get better if you let it. I was holding on to all my self loathing, and fears. I had to realize I deserved to be happy. Now… I would never think of going back to that way of life. Stay the course.. you deserve it!
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I don't think that moment comes for some of us. The almost certainty of death and regret for the ones I lost will always be my reason and simply a dark cloud in my past. Tomorrow is all I have and I'm happy to have it.
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Worst thing you can do is compare your recovery to any one else’s. It’s different for us all. I never had the pink clouds or butterflies either, but I saw a lot of people who did. I used to wonder when I was going to feel that way too. I was coming out of severe alcohol abuse, PTSD, and divorcing my wife all at once. I ended up in the hospital for 8 days with pancreatitis and severe withdrawals. My post acute withdrawal was long after my hospital stay. It took months to gain my clear head back all the while working my program and going back to work. The low energy lasted about 5-6 months for me. It will get better. I promise. Stick with it!!
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At 60 days .. I was not great ! I felt much like you .. still feeling down & broken. But remember you’re body is detoxing still & going through physical & mental withdrawals. Be patient with yourself. Those pink cloud moments come & go. You’ve got this 
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You are not alone! I didn’t experience the euphoria of the pink cloud until much later.
Although difficult, try not to compare your journey to others. Everyone’s recovery is different and I think it depends on what you’re abstaining from, how long you were using, how you got clean (inpatient vs. outpatient rehab). There are countless factors that impact one’s recovery, which is why it’s pointless to compare, but we can definitely learn from each other!!
Personally, I was stuck in a victim mentality and I didn’t start to do the work until I was a couple months clean.. then it was an emotional roller coaster and I didn’t level out until 7 months or so.
Keep up the good fight. I’m so proud of you! The first few months are the worst, for sure.
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I hope this doesn’t come off badly, but 60 days felt like the nothing to me. I was still coming out of twelve years of being drunk every day. I was either feeling absolutely hopeless in life or very angry. No in between. I felt mostly ashamed my life was in such shambles. That I was so broke, fat, lonely, and angry. I couldn’t get over how angry I was all the time. 60 days was a dark time for me. I relapsed my first attempt right about 50 days in, and went on a two week bender. My second, and current, attempt at sobriety went better but 60 days was still really tough.
Wishing you the best. Always reach out to us if you need!
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Thank you, Jeremy, that really helps!
I think it’s really about your mind set. I recommend reading the book this naked mind by Annie Grace. It’s a game changer
First 60 days is a weird experience. Brain chemicals are still unbalanced. Your body is still experiencing aftershocks from years of abuse. But time does start to heal the brain. Another month and you are at 90. You may feel the same as you do at 60 but be assured, your brain is still healing. It takes time for everything to balance out and for your dopamine levels to correct. Energy will come back but again, this requires time. For me, it took months, but these initial feelings of sobriety you are experiencing are incredibly important. Use them as a foundation in your journey through recovery.
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Wow. You really went through it. So glad you came through to the other side bro.
Everyone’s experience is different. For me, I kept busy with work. Getting myself financially straightened out, working on my spirituality, physically getting back into shape, going to meetings. Also, surrounding myself with sober people. I live in an Oxford house, so we all have that in common. Keep yourself occupied and rebuild yourself bigger than ever before.
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Thanks! Best decision I ever made.
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