Good Evening All, this is my first time posting and I am not sure how this will go or if it is even allowed. I am proud to say that I am 25days clean and sober but here is where it gets complicated. 25 days ago was was not sober and using and hit my rock bottom with threatening to take my life in front of my wife. The next day I was put on a mental health hold and was served with a protection order from my wife and 2 year old son. I entered myself into treatment right away and have been making huge strides on getting back what I love more than anything and that is my wife and son! Unfortunately that came to a grinding hault this morning at 8am when I was served with divorce papers. Today has been the roughest days I have ever had and the craving to use and drink again skyrocketed. What has made it much worse is that with the PO I have not been able to talk with my wife about what I am doing to get better and prove to her that after my treatment I will be the man she fell in love with. I am happy to say that I didn’t and went right to my treatment center so that I was in a safe place. I know this is long and unwanted as I am new to all of this but I am asking for prayers to give me the strength to make it through this. Sorry I am just trying to find people like me that I can talk to as I don’t have anyone after cutting ties with so many of my so called friends that still use and drink. I am doing this for myself and my son but today has tested my sobriety like no tomorrow. PM me if you want. Okay done rambling.
