I’m really not doing too well. I am hvaing some terivle thought, and going through quite a bit at the moment. I din’t have family or friends to reach out to for any of the help I need, could really use someone to talk to about my situation.
Trying my HARDEST to not go to a bar. 
I have been using the Calm meditation app as well as How We Feel to go deeper into understanding my emotions. I recommend both. Thinking of you today.
Go to an AA meeting instead of going to the bar.
You can find lots of like-minded sober women to talk to at AA meetings. Highly recommend. Good luck to you
Waking Up
Calming down a coping skill
I've got no1 either. It's rough, but keep doing what you need to do for YOU! We don't belong to normal society.
There's calm app if you have kaiser insurance you get free premium membership. Insight timer has alot of free stuff. Headspace as well.
Therapy in a Nutshell on YouTube is something that's helped me. She's a licensed therapist who explains how our brain works and techniques we can do to improve our overall mental health, i.e stopping intrusive thoughts, anxiety, etc.
It's not a substitute for 1 on 1 therapy but I've found it's helped me
Thank you everyone for the great suggestions! You all make things so much easier 
Hey, I’m really glad you’re reaching out. You can also DM anytime.
Have you looked into BetterHelp? They can provide some solid support when you need it most.
Go to the top of the app (mobile to find BetterHelp) Or here’s the link: https://loosidapp.com/betterhelp/
Stay strong.
Ashley, you’re not alone. Smart move reaching out to your sober brothers & sisters.
Do you have a sponsor?
If not, it is crucial to work the 12 steps with a sponsor.
Here if you want to talk.