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Recovery
#1

Good Morning Everyone! I joined Loosid to see what it would be like.

I've been in and out of aa and sobriety for about 18 years and have put together decent stretches of sobriety, my longest being 4 years.

I have been struggling the past 3 or 4 years with maintaining any amount of real sobriety and am back now and ready to get to work. I am on day 5 right now and every day so far has been a struggle. I've done a meeting every day, I am doing out patient rehab in the evenings and I'm on Antabuse and Vivitrol.

For the first time I can remember, I'm really struggling during these early stages of sobriety - really feeling the physical cravings more than ever. I used to be a binge drinker maybe once or twice a week, but it's now binge drinking 3-5 times a week - I am sure I am just that much more dependent.

Since relapsing Sunday-Tuesday I've gone and dove into it all, getting the meds I mentioned, calling folks from AA, raising my hand in meetings, getting and giving phone numbers, and most importantly making plans so I am filling my time with sobriety.

Thanks Jeff

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#2

Hey brother! Welcome to Loosid! As you know all too well, this sickness we have is a beast! It attacks us from all sides… physically, mentally, and spiritually. Plus, we are never cured from it. That’s the bad news. The good news is there is a beautiful solution called recovery. Since you’ve put together a few years before, you know it can be done. What I’ve learned from my relapse is that I need a daily program to stay healthy. Personally I got to AA and practice the 12 steps as best I can. I’ve met friends on here that work other programs and are having success as well. I’m fact, I’ve borrowed some of their tools to add to my program. In either case most programs focus on practicing daily positive changes that help our mental and spiritual well being. As I progress through my recovery, I’m beginning to understand the idea of one day at a time on a whole different level. I’ve also got in touch with this feeling that this higher power that everyone in AA talks about is something that has always been a part of me. I’ve always had a conscious that knew right from wrong…my ego just desired to do what I wanted to do instead. I’m learning to trust my gut, and not be a slave to my ego and it’s insane thoughts. My addiction lives within my ego. Wow… I really got of course :joy:. Anyway, stay connected to others in recovery. I did this alone for many years. It’s a lonely existence. We are much stronger when we work on this together!

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#3

Good luck. Stay strong

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#4

Check out SMART recovery. You might just find the tools to stay sober

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#5

Hope you’re doing well today Jeff :pray::+1:

#6

Your honesty is inspiring.:yellow_heart: welcome to Loosid!