Grateful, but empty

November 28th 2016 was my last drink.

Over 7 years.
Over 89 months.
Over 387 weeks
Over 2711 days

Going from losing everything and waiting to die, to have a beautiful family, an amazing wife, a wonderful daughter that will be 1 years old next week, own a cute little house, be steady financially, and recently having the opportunity to work in my passion field, which is cars. As a new cars salesman for Lexus. All those incredible things, making me a better man, bringing me to places I would've never thought possible... and yet, feeling sad, empty and weak.

I apologize to all of you because I really don't want to look like an ungrateful person. I feel blessed, so lucky and yes my family brings me so much positive things, and so much joy...

I am just trying to understand, adapt and deal with this emptiness, this void.

Am I normal?

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Seems normal to me…. We all go thru a rut sober or not :pray:

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Very proud of you sticking through it and letting people know. We go through phases though. Sounds like depression to me. If it stays and never goes away that is clinical depression, you need a psychiatrist if it is bad. Not all depression goes away. Medicine might be right for you if that's what you want to do. Make sure to get excersise as well.
Amazing job being sober that long don't give it up!

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Good morning Lucio

I’m sorry to hear you are struggling. But I am glad to hear you are sober. Congratulations on 7 years.

Have you thought about going on antidepressants?

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