Jeez, y'all. Almost 4 years down (October 20th)! I literally can't believe it sometimes. I had been using since I was 14 or 15, over half my life, and truly never thought I'd quit. Every time I heard of an OD in my "using circle", I wondered how long it would be until it was me they were talking about.
The worst was when I lost my best friend and her entire family in a house fire almost 5 years ago now...including my 2 godsons, 5 and 6. I had actually been clean for a few months and never relapsed so hard. It was terrible. I OD'd 3 times in one week and the paramedics literally told me I was wasting their time and they wouldn't respond to another call at my address. That was eye opening. Then I had to deal with my PO (bc I was on state paper at the time) and she told me "rehab or back to county" so ofc I chose rehab. But this time, something was different.....something STUCK. Then, after rehab it was a halfway house, then I moved in with my (now) fiance. And here we are 4 years later with 2 beautiful miracle babies that I was never supposed to be able to have (and previously had 3 losses trying) and beyond grateful for my life.
Don't get me wrong, it's far from perfect...but I'm doing things the right way. Every day I'm another day down and showing my babies that they can be the chain breakers in our families and defeat this generational curse. I'm blessed to have 2 wonderful babies...1.5 and 2.5 basically—13 months apart because, ya know, the good Lord has a sense of humor! 
and I'm so blessed to be able to stay home with them and watch them grow, and nurture a small business from home, as well.
We CAN recover. We DO recover. Every single day...one single day at a time! I'm telling you, if I can do it, you can do it! 
It isn't a quick and easy process, that's true. It's a struggle and it takes time. I like to think of it like this: it didn't take you a few weeks or months to get to that "rock bottom", and it's going to take at least equally as long to bounce back...but you gotta be patient. And while it won't be easy, it WILL be worth it. I promise. 
Give yourself some grace. We're all at different points in our journey of recovery, but just the fact that we are here is a step in the right direction!
