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#1

Admitting myself to MH today to address the pain and sleep issues causing my burning desire to pump death into my veins.

Insomnia has my delirium peaked to the point of jail/death being imminent and pain to the point of death being most welcome.

Not a sob story, rather a lesson... For I've been dealing with this for 15 years pretty seriously and 20 plus in all. It wasn't until recovery that I was able to formulate a good emergency plan for days like this. It took years of active recovery (3.5) for me to get it fine-tuned to a point where I even felt a whole lot of hope, and it certainly comes and goes.

It takes time and practice like anything, but this CAN and WILL get mastered.
IT WORKS when WE work IT. Keep coming back.
ODAAT.

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#2

Made it out. Got some sleep. Thank God. So grateful for all of the Doctors, Nurses and Behavioral Health Technicians.
ODAAT

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#3

Once again, I keep saying this, the doctors are so willing to give you these benzos and all these other drugs but you gotta tell the doctor I do not want to take a bunch of drugs anymore. That’s what’s getting me in here all the time you gotta be honest with yourself and the doctors, if you keep taking the drugs, you’re not gonna get sober and you’re not gonna have a happy joyous life I see people come from the recovery houses and they’re saying well. I’m on this drug and that drug and this drug and they’re half asleep at the time. Nope you gotta get off the drugs, drug and alcohol free otherwise you might as well, just shoot dope again, 

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#4

I understand where you are coming from. With a decimated lumbar, tailbone and pelvis, trust me when I tell you that what I take is minimal. The plan is my current pain medication will see once my back surgery is corrected until then it is what is keeping me alive. I appreciate your Insight and input however one size does not fit all in each individual is different. I am planning on ditching all the meds when possible however I refuse to put my life in jeopardy because of someone else's opinion of my current treatment as prescribed.

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#5

With all respect however, I hear you. Same time, it's about progress not Perfection and I am trusting the process and I understand the doctors tend to want to just throw drugs at and at mask the problem.

I work everyday on physical therapy, exercise physical rehabilitation, self healing etc.

#6

Hang in there, brother. 1 foot in front of the other one day at a time one hour at a time if needed.

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#7

Absolutely. And thank you for the reminder. It makes all the difference

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