Grateful that I was able to be a present, sober mother for the past 3 nights with my daughter, today is day 6 sober. I am a good mother who becomes numb and only partially present when I drink, which is a great source of shame for me.
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Congratulations, mama! You’re worth it. Your daughter deserves the mama she’s got and when she’s present it’s even more magical spending time together.
For 18 months my daughter had to witness me getting wasted on a daily basis and I would black out and not do what I’d say I’d do and was a total let down. The severity of my tremors kept me in that drunken cycle for too long.
Luckily, I pulled myself outta that and she and I are still close. But I’m with you, the mom guilt is so real and can become consuming. I remind myself that I’m worth forgiving and I remind myself it takes hard work to change habits and behaviors, that I’ll stumble and it’s not the end of the world. Just to keep fighting.
I will be hitting 4 years on the 19th.
I believe in you, lady.
You are a good mom. Keep going forward, put the positive on top of the negative.