Grateful things

Daily Gratitude
#1
  1. I am grateful the love of my life is entering hospice. Her suffering will end soon.
  2. I am grateful I could get her son to see her on Saturday.
  3. I am grateful I could get her 12 year old daughter to her on Sunday.
  4. I am grateful I was able to get a traveling notary to come to hospital Sunday night to finalize a majority of her legal docs, which will benefit her kids in the wake of her death
  5. I am grateful that I arranged for her mom to visit today and coordinated with her girlfriends to attempt to get her atty to hospital two final docs
  6. Most of all I am grateful for the time I have had with her (although it will never be enough) and for the care she has shown me and helping me find my way to recovery.
  7. I am thankful to my parents, and my coaches, and my kids, who are all there to catch me if I start to fall. I am so f&@king lucky.
  8. I am grateful I am letting myself feel the love and the pain that goes with it, rather than drowning it in a bottle.

149 days of sobriety and going strong

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#2

This was one of the most beautifully written gratitude lists that I have ever read!! I am speechless, and that doesn't happen often to me! Words cannot properly express how badly I needed to read this right now. Your words, thoughts, and emotions brought me to tears. God is everything, and He WILL take her to a better place where she is no longer in pain anymore when it is her time! You WILL see her again, I believe that with ever fiber of my being. May God keep you and continue to work with you and through you, brother. You are not alone! :pray:t2::heart:

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#3

Yes. Her spirit will no longer be confined to the limitations of her body. I will be with her again. She will watch over and protect me and others. And she will know love without the pain that we carry on earth. Thank you, Andrew, for your kindness.

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#4

Well said, brother!! This is absolutely, without a shadow of a doubt in my mind, exactly what I believe. I have had too many experiences personally where I have felt my mother's presence and guidance throughout my life to deny God's plan for all of us! :pray:t2::heart:

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#5

I hope you don't mind, but a member of my men's group was struggling with the loss of his brother so I read your gratitude list for my meeting this morning. It changed his perspective, and brought him to tears. THAT is the power of God, and this fellowship! Thank you again for sharing this!!

#6

That’s what has changed for me. Looking at things under a different lens. It’s also what I love about group. Whether it is me that is struggling or someone else. Sometimes we get trapped in our own minds.  I am happy it’s shared if it helps at all. 
She started morphine and is getting close. I release for her.