I'm not sure that I am grateful for where I'm at; this is the lowest I ever remember being.
I am grateful for the love that so many have shown me so I can get better.
The woman I love is still my friend at least, and she does love me per her words; She is beautiful inside and out.
I am grateful for is how I am made, and how God is showing me how I am made.
I am a binge drinker. I am not glad for that, but I'm glad that I know that now. It helps me know how I work. At the base, the way I am wired so to speak. This can change, neuroplasticity, but right now this is how I am 'wired'.
So how can I grow,? It's straightforward;
I will pursue activities that are good for me and I enjoy, and
I will pick 1 or 2 things that need to be done but aren't my favorite, and do them weekly.
I will continue counseling weekly.
I think this will help me be me, and bless others by God's Spirit.
Let's win family.