I have been really thinking about this the last few days.
I’m struggling bad in many ways. They may be small but something’s I have worked so hard to get and losing it is a big deal.
Yes, I’m grateful for being sober, grateful to be alive, having my children, and even the small support system I have.
I worked so hard to get back into school. To finish high school get into college and follow my dreams. But not having a job makes it hard. Not being able to pay my tuition, not being able to get my daughter something for her 16th birthday. Makes me feel worthless.
Studying helps me in so many ways. Knowing my children are good and have what they need and want makes me feel like I'm not following in my mother's footsteps. Showing my kids no matter how old you are you can achieve your dreams.
Can you? At what cost? Sometimes I feel like I should just give up and continue in this worthless cycle called life. 
