I had a dream last night that I was trying to convince my friend they are an addict. It got pretty heated and eventually turned violent. I’m appalled at my dream behavior. I realize I just miss them a lot.
When I told them I was in recovery this year, they asked to come with me to meetings, and admitted they believed they might also need this program. But then they went back to excessive drinking and acting out, and started to resent my presence. They’d make remarks about how needy and untrustworthy addicts are, and said my friendship was a burden and I need to get my life together. It came to a head one day, when they said I don’t care for them and I’m disgusting.
After that they completely shut me out of their life, and told some of our mutual acquaintances to do the same. They’ve also lashed out at some of our acquaintances, and ostracized them much in the same way. I’m worried, but I’m trying to focus on my side of the street. All I can do is pray, but the grief is so persistent. I know this isn’t them, it’s the disease. I miss my friend 