I had to somewhat unexpectedly put my 17 year old dachshund Lola down today. It truly was a gift that she waited until I was over a year sober and I was able to do right by her and hold her at the very end. It's bringing back some complex feelings as I cried more than I did when my mom died from complications of her addiction. It is a miracle that I was able to pick up on something wrong, because the doctor said we weren't at end of life yet, but after they did an ultrasound scan they found a mass and internal bleeding and if I didn't put her down right away she was going to have a painful death. Things would have gone much differently if I was still in active addiction. I'm also thankful for my community of support. Please give your fur babies a big hug for me tonight.
Awww im so sorry for your loss. Mama knows best 🫂 good job listening to your intuition and great job handling it as well as you can. 
Thanks for the kind words MJ!
I’m so sorry for your loss, Shannon. Losing a pet is hard, especially when they’ve been such a big part of your life. Thank you for sharing this with us. Sending you so much love and support tonight.
I can definitely feel the love and support from here. Thanks so much Crissy
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My condolences to you. Having to put down our fur babies is a real tough decision to make in and out of Sobriety.
Lola has crossed over rainbow bridge and is running around freely and in no more pain.
Hugs from me and my two little shihtz to you 
I’m so sorry for your loss. I really do understand the bound that a pet bring. My fur baby emotional support kitty girl was really sick and I had to make that very difficult decision too back in may of this year. She was 18. I miss her very much, but I know she’s in a better place. My heart goes out too you
Thank you, Kara! Making that difficult decision is a testimate to just how much we love our pets, but they loved us unconditionally