yesterday, i went to group therapy. it was the second one i’ve attended. when it was my turn to talk and say my levels (like levels of what is your anxiety/ depression)
and right now i feel stable so my levels of anxiety/depression is low. And because of that i felt like the therapist rushed thru my time. and she kept cutting me off and like saying the opposite.
The topic of the day was self esteem. I said i have never struggled with that and she was like are you sure. and im like yep and she’s like you sure you don’t feel worthless or have ever felt that and i was like no i think i’m worth love and deserve it and she’s like you sure????? you sure you don’t deserve bad things and i’m like no? and she’s like do you think your better than people and i said no again and she’s like maybe your manic right now. I said no i feel stable and she’s like soooo
and im like my self esteem has always been balanced. and she smiled and said hmmm yah ok im a weird tone.
like she made me feel i should feel bad like im order to be in group i must be depressed and i said that and she’s like no we of course want you to be happy….
i think this group isn’t for me
even the other people in the group are not too supportive of me.
Another point in the group, i tried to relate to someone and then the therapist again said it’s not my time and i had my time. like w t f is this
im group therapy aren’t you aloud to speak to others in the group to show them they are not alone in how they feel. like that’s literally what group is for, so you feel less alone and are around ppl going thru what you are. but i guess i’m not sad enough right now
also the therapist brings up my addiction a lot and it’s a mental health group. i’ve already explored my addiction side of me and i understand it…. i want to understand my mental health. where does my emotions come from and how to control them. just because i’m not extremely depressed at the moment doesn’t mean i can’t relate.
How do you guys feel about group therapy?? have you ever attended one, if so how did you like it ? was it beneficial?
i think i might switch into a different group cos the therapist from the last time i did group is still there and i liked how he ran his group sessions.
But yah thx for reading my ramble about group ((^(OO)^))
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