Had a bad couple days and bad news last weekend which led me to drinking again and landed myself back in the hospital. Its frustrating when you’re trying so hard and everyone keeps asking about it, its planting the seed in my mind when all i want to do is turn a blind eye towards it. I dont want aa, i dont want counseling, i dont want to hear, talk or think about it anymore. When someone brings it up, it just makes me want to imbibe. Does anybody else feel this way?
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Sorry to hear you are struggling right now.there is nothing wrong with telling people you are trying to process everything and you need some time before you are ready to talk about it if that is how you feel. Bad days are just that..a day.if you choose to hold onto that bad moment you are giving that situation the power to control you. you can overcome anything you want to.the power over you can only be given away by you.
Yeah Dude, the first few months were hard with that. Honestly I stayed away from friends that drank for about 6 months. There were 3 stores I didn’t go in. I protected myself from triggers. When I got bad news I reach out to my close family and sober support (I do attend AA) This group is a great place to find support. After while it got easier to be around it. I quit drinking to save my marriage. After a year of sobriety my wife left, with my faith and support I made it through sober. I had always planned to drink if she ended up leaving. That’s my experience. Stay strong man.
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