Today I realized a pattern.
When there’s too much on my plate, thats when I want to escape/quit. I will hit “panic at the disco” mode.
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•The Cause —
Looking back at the why, as a kid I would get ridiculed and disciplined for “talking back” or “talking too much” which was mainly me asking questions and trying to understand the “why.” My parents —mainly mother, quite literally, beat it out of me.
•The Effect —
That conditioning caused me to stop asking questions (and quite really asking for anything period) , especially when I didn’t understand, and this included asking for help — even as an adult.. 
•Today—
As an adult, this is reflected in my as taking on so much that I don’t know how or when to say “enough,” “no,” or “I need help…” and as a result, my cup runneth over, quite literally.
•The Reflection—
The “fuller” my plate, the “fuller” my cup, it would seem.
• The Goal —
My current goal is to get my glass back to half empty.
• The Rationale —
Because “half empty” is more than ok.
Because “half empty” means I always have room for plenty.
Because “half empty” still means I have plenty to share.
I don’t need a bigger cup, I don’t need a different or “better” cup.
Half empty meand I have options, I have possibilities, I have opportunities.
Half empty means there is work happening in the unseen and things are conspiring in my favor.
•Today —
The cup I have was made specifically and especially for me. MY cup has everything I need to accommodate MY life, more than enough, as long as I focus on MY cup and what is in it.
•Looking Ahead —
Some days my cup will run fuller than others, some days emptier, but as long as I keep my focus on my cup, I will always have enough and enough is all I need.