This Christmas is hard time for me i lost my mother unexpectedly 12/24/20 heart attack and i have delt with it and coped with that the last 4 years with numbing myself with drugs this year will be different because im clean and im just scared that the emotions and feelings will try to trip me up and asking those that pray to remember me that i get the strenth i need to make it thru it and stay clean..thank you all
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I'm so sorry. But it looks to me like your doing a great job so far.
@lilly428670 I fully understand and can relate to where you're at. This time in 2005 I lost two of my closest friends while in the middle east. I get where you're at.
One thing that I've learned from it is that it's ok to remember, it's ok to mourn, it's ok to dwell on the past. It's not ok to give it free rent in your head.
In this case, remember, the mourn and dwell on the positive.
Make your mom proud by not numbing yourself and facing reality head-on with clarity.
You can do this. You're 280 days into sobriety. You got this. We (I am) are hear/here for you.