I’m curious, What has been the hardest part about getting/trying to get/staying sober? Relationships? Working? Social situations? Physical health?
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For me it was social, and intimacy. And just not going back out there to drink. I was an isolated drinker. So social was always hard for me. Now I am just more aware of everything around me because I am sober.
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Social situations and basically reacclimating into the real world again... isolated a lot when I drank.
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I have no reason not to get high. I pay my bills, I take care of my responsibilities and I’m not hanging out with people that want to abuse me and then use me. It doesn’t make sense how the drugs are a problem but people can destroy a person bad enough to be medicated but I’m not allowed to get high just because someone else did something stupid? I do see the damaging effects it has on your body. I see how much it damages internal organs and how fast the chemicals burn your skin but is that what it’s considered bad? Bc of the side effects it has on our bodies? What’s the difference between my drugs damaging my body bc I chose to do them and some random k destroying my mind and leaving me depending on a legal substance the government can profit off of and gain from me dying …vs me on my own by myself doing drugs and killing my own body with my own knowledge at my own permissions ? If our maker said an eye for an eye.. where’s my eye? This is what makes me staying sober so hard. I have no reason not to. No one to hold me accountable or no one to care other than my child and she’s not affected until I start trying to detox get sick and she’s the one now playing the parent. I’d rather stay high and not put that on her or risk the state coming In and taking her. As a business major my opportunity cost is greater than the gain in my current standings. Sorry about throwing up on your post but it’s when I find my message 
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Grief and my mental health. Around the time of my 18 months of sobriety, I hit an extremely low point mentally and emotionally. I didn’t necessarily want to drink, but I didn’t know what to do. It was a different kind of bottom for me. I strayed away from my sober recovery to try to get help for my mental health, but I realized I had to work on all of my issues together. My sobriety has to come first, but I also need help from a therapist and psychiatrist. For me, healing took more than AA (where I choose to recover) because alcoholism isn’t my only diagnosis. But I still knew if I drank, everything would be much much worse.
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Letting God take the reigns. Fought with him for years. Got my soul handed to me on a platter. After getting beat up pretty bad. Don’t recommend doing this if he comes calling. Only one way to block him out, using. Not very bright I is.