I hate myself for the hurt and pain ive caused to others, despite my best efforts and promises not to do so.
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Don't hate yourself, hate your actions maybe, but not yourself. You've made mistakes....we all make mistakes. Don't be Soo hard on yourself, people who truly love and care about you will know that it's the addiction that's causing your poor decision making and actions, and will be happy to forgive you ... when the time is right, I'm sure of it. For those who are unable to forgive you, you have to respect this fact and move forward anyhow. It's not the end of the world, and most likely won't be forever. Do this for yourself and the rest will follow. But hating yourself is not going to do anything, but keep you stuck in a cycle of addiction and give you an excuse to feel sorry for yourself and go use. It's not proactive or productive, serves no purpose whatsoever except to keep you stagnant and or to send you into relapse.
I’m almost a year clean and I still feel that way.
You shouldn’t regret the past or wish to shut the door on it. Your life goes forward and never in reverse. You have to learn how to forgive yourself for the past mistakes that you’ve made and as you work, your steps, there’s a piece for making amends to people and you don’t have to necessarily do it in person if you feel like it’ll cause conflict. But you definitely can write letters to those people and really release The hurt and the guilt that you feel. Freedom from those experiences will be a breath of fresh air for you. And if you are a big book reader, it says on page 417, that acceptance is the answer to all your problems today.!
Give it to your higher power.. amazing things start to happen in your life...trust this it's hard to put into words but the change you will fill inside of you is truly undeniable...I felt the same way but there has been a change happening inside of me and it's literally saved my life...you don't have to do this alone
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